Pure Existence Godbeing Avatar Divine,
7th Stage Adept of Reality-Way,
Adi Da The Awakener, I bow down to You!
Please hold me in place! Stand fast for
me!
Winds are blowing! There is no lord.
The sky is troubled. I cannot sleep.I grip my garments day and night.
No respite! No respite! God! Where are you?
No peace! No Peace! I am enraged!
I cannot grieve! You deny me that!It does not matter if you exist.
Pain is pain when it grips the heart.
Fiery Death-Slayer, Adi Da The Bright!
Tell me You Are real? I want to see it.
Do you endure the raw truth, or do you
only pretend?Back off! Stay away! No guru can help me!
Though sinners devour me, I will stay my own course!
Adi Da! Adi Da! I am my own self!
Adi Da! Adi Da! I am my own self!Adi Da! Adi Da! I am my own self!
There is purpose to what you are
suffering, but you will never find it in the veils of illusion that comprise
your life. To live as an individual being who suffers, you must pretend that
you are not an infinite being. That pretense is the essence of the human
condition. You suffer from the pretense that makes you a sufferer.
Narrowing life down into personal
experience is what the Godbeing does to itself in order to explore its own
condition; thus, its knowledge of life has no more certainty to it than does
your human knowledge. But you don’t know this, do you? From this narrowed-down
point of view, you have depended upon a belief about God to sustain your place
in life. Some beneficent being, someone with great power and capacity for love,
has nurtured you and is protecting you. But now that security is being shaken.
Inside the question that has brought you to this prayer lies the realization
that you cannot be sure of anything the mind creates. You are discovering that
your beliefs about God are a defense against the raw, unadorned truth of your
existence. What happens when you discover the absolute fires of creation and
realize that there is no God there protecting you and that all along it has
been you—that God is a fabrication, not of human intelligence, but of infinite
intelligence in its awful contemplation of its own existence?
From your place in the veil, you have
looked back to that first illusion as a comforting truth to be worshipped and
called upon for guidance. And why not? It feels good to have its grace run
through your veins. But shedding this illusion leaves you naked in godspace,
requiring from you an endurance that can only be found within that which is so
shattering to contemplate.
The truth of godspace is always
exerting pressure on illusion. Go deep into this prayer and see for yourself!
Climb down now to the roots of your pain and draw upon the godbeing to
reconcile your human condition with the godless reality that you are being asked
to accept. God both is and is not. In order to stand naked in your own truth,
you have to accept the “is not” aspect of God with as much courage as you
embrace the “is” aspect. The mind is your greatest enemy in this regard as it
generates one defensive shield after another. These desperate thoughts are the
sinners mentioned in this prayer. But there is hope if you fear being alone in
the truth. Illusions about God do not shed themselves absolutely because they
are necessary absolutely. The veil twists and turns as Adi Da stirs eternally like a Hidden Dragon in His Sphere of Regard, His Midnight Sun, but He alone can bear Truth's nakedness.
Godbeings within godbeings within godbeings manage the “rest.”
