47 Overcoming Despair

Pure Existence Godbeing in my own awake space,
Self-existent traveler through the quantum cosmos,
Stirred awake as I dream, I know you are real!
Please, lift this despair out of my heart!

The weight of the world in one simple thought!
I sink deeper and deeper! There is no way out!
Love cannot come here! It always fails!
Grief and torment are bedfellows for life!

Hidden Dragon! Scour the field!
Torch all memories! Then fill me with fire!
The impossible happens when life is restored!
Life without boundaries is love redeemed.

Living Love! Fire of Life! Resurrection bliss!
Living Love! Fire of Life! Resurrection bliss!
Living Love! Fire of Life! Resurrection bliss!

As a godbeing enters the perception module of a human being, it takes on the various sheaths of the human experience, which are body, mind, emotion and the individualized sense. The contrast between its absolute singularity and earthplanet life is unendurable without profound preparation from both the godbeing and the human being points of view. Whatever question has brought you to this prayer, find within it the intense repelling influence these realities project onto each other.

Your life has no real purpose beyond the intent of the godbeing who is your life dreamer. Other influences, however, are always at play. Each sheath of individual life has desires of its own, which you must contend with in order to chart a life direction. Only the intent of the godbeing dreamer can coordinate these influences. Despair arises out of the imperviousness of the human form not only to the oversight of a godbeing but also to the life-supporting influences that are available from the godbeing’s other modules of perception.

The human body is almost opaque to the realities of godspace. It acts solely to live out its mission, which is to sustain itself so that other, more primary processes may take place. When left too long without the influence of the godbeing dreamer, which is its source of life, an individual life may self-destruct. In the larger context of the godbeing’s intent, such a life may still serve.

If despair has led you to draw this prayer card, you are being asked to draw life-support directly from the Hidden Dragon energies, which imbue all sheaths, all levels of cosmic and personal life, and all dimensions of godspace. The godbeing may even be exerting a depression upon you to see if you have the resilience to draw upon this hidden resource.

Advanced Commentary

The voice in this prayer is a godbeing suffering under the weight of the human world. In  mortal form, it walks through the dense conditions of earthplanet plane knowing that it has a mission, but it is on the edge of giving it up. If that which has sent it into the world wishes to have its intent fulfilled, then the conditions of life under which it must function have to be made lighter.

Despair is its sense that there is no way for the weight to be lifted. As this voice moves more deeply into the human abyss, it recognizes, too, that love, which alone can make its walk through the human world tolerable, always fails. These realizations about life and love are the nadir of its existence, both as a human being and as a godbeing.

Loss of love is, however, a necessary condition by which the actual godseed that is the essence of this prayer can manifest. Just at this moment of deepest despair, Hidden Dragon “scours the field.” It releases the fire of life into the human form occupied by the godbeing and fills it with as much of the real fire as it can tolerate.

Love is not restored when the despair is lifted, and yet the “impossible” freedom that arises out of its loss redeems it. Love fulfills its purpose by failing. “Resurrection bliss” is another of the infinite godseed possibilities.